so today i had:

90cal breakfast bar
96cal pretzels
2 7cal cups of coffee with skim milk

total 200cal

awesome. i started the 2468 diet today: 200 calories exactly! yay! plus i did my workout, like crunches and press-ups and a run. i feel really amazing!

oops, so i went a bit over yesterday, but nothing near as bad as the day before (less than half the fat :D).

yesterday's stats:
500ml diet coke: 3cals
special K cereal bar: 90cals (2 grams of fat)
fabulous bakin' boys low fat pretzels: 96cals (1.8 grams of fat)
3 cups of coffee: 30cals
bowl of special K: 166cals (0.5 grams of fat)
salmon: 150cals (6.6 grams of fat)
peas: 50cals
broccoli: 20cals
french beans: 15cals
ground beef: 70cals (1 gram of fat)

total: 600 calories, 11.7 grams of fat

from today, i've decided to start the 2468 to celebrate my vacation in england. so no more than 200 today: water, coffee and diet coke time! i'm thinking of getting a low cal cereal bar and some pretzels, like i had yesterday, and then skip dinner. it's perfect because maddy (my friend that i'm staying with) is gonna be working out late tonight, so i'll just sleep.

i had: 

diet coke: 5cal
lipton ice tea: 63cal
3 cups of filter coffee with skim milk: 45cal
low-fat pretzels: 95cal

total calories: 208

for a day, that ain't bad! i also listened to the first chapter of the Virtue of Selfishness on audiobook, and i was playing Rush for hours while i was doing some analysis on newspaper articles, which made me feel really optimistic and awesome. to the future!

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i've been eating horrible amounts for the past few days, because i was sick of being so unproductive and stuff so i was trying not to sleep. there is nothing like a few nights spent awake annotating atlas shrugged. ugh, just work for the sake of working! i wanted to prove to myself that i could work that hard, because sometimes when i start focusing on things like sleeping comfortably i feel like i'm spending too much time on physical functions and not enough on mental functions.

i'm not gonna do that again for a while though. all my self-control slipped. and i'm talking pizza, cookies, cereal, liquor chocolates, that kind of slipped. bleh. i think i must have eaten around 1/2k calories per day for the past few days. i'm actually surprised i'm not feeling worse; i hadn't had more than 500 in a day for at least 2 weeks before and i feel like quadrupling the amount i eat should have made me sicker. amazingly i've only put on one pound. but that's two pounds too much, so i'm going to start cutting down again now. i should drink some water, only i really, really don't want to. so i guess it can wait.

i'm optimistic. my self-control can get really, really good. :)

I'm starting this journal to get to know the LJ world and to try and sort out my life a little bit. So let's see what happens! Fingers crossed ♥